stupid sia.. quarrel with her over small little things.. tell her i need the cloths only den need wash.. den she say so u bring whole pail there.. LOL... den might as will i dun tell u... i go make myself better right?? den i go take those cloths to wash u shout again... lol... shout shout shout is the only thing u know is shout at me? u gt care hw i feel ma?? u like then throw me temper.. u like u hit me... u like u shout at me.. keep always implanting negative tots on me.. about r/s abt guys abt frenz... lol i need freedom.. i need ppl to care but nt in this form.. its too over my limit.. u dun scold me out of nothin.. u dun come home jus wack me like this... or throw things here n there.. u at least must tell me wads wrong wad... i'm nt ur puppet leh!! i got feelings.. got emotions de... dun force me leave home again!!! FISH!!! i noe u tired.. u stress... but.. got limited la... i become ur trash can for u to throw temper at me.. endurin it.. swallow it down deep within... didnt let u see my tears.. well.. alot of my things u didnt even care.. didnt even listen to wad i'm sayin.. only wan me listen to wad u say wad u wan wad u think..
wad about me???!!
i also need u to know how i feel.. wad i think.. i also need u to listen to me de..

i know u care but... show me can?? action n words...

when i hug u u push me away.. wad the... oh well sad ppl say i no childhood.. wad to do.. when ppl is playin i'm wrkin... well u can say i'm findin excuses.. forget it.. past is past.. y i like cute stuff nw.. cus i cant n wun have them last time.. i'll noe my limit not to buy too much of it.. but.. i need words from u too.. words of encouragment or a hug from u when i'm down when i'm sad.. when i dun felt comfortable.. when i'm scare..
a words
a sentence
a hug
from u.. everything is diff.. can say u are my one n only family member... i only left u.. tads y i always endure n endure.. even when small u love pinchin me so much here blue black there blue black even slap me till bleed.. every thing it will never get off my mind.. but u are my only.. i can lost u... dun leave me.. wad has past is past..

guess blog is the only way to vent my
anger
sworrows
cries
sad
worries
my everything..

cus i dun wan other ppl to worry.. end up ppl misunderstood me.. cus i didnt say out.. tad i mind.. at times i help ppl.. go over my limits.. go over my comfort zone to help ppl.. but theres never a thanks.. never.. well maybe i'm dumb.. stupid.. always trust ppl treatin everyi=one i know as fren..
help them even if its non of my prob.. even its the most major thing tad occurs n hurt me mentally.. i even forgive in like weeks time..
"FORGIVE N NEVER FORGET"
once my senior told me this.. haha its easy to forgive.. but its hard to forget.. as it ardy happen to be written in ur story book( mind/brain).. well true also..

haha after writing here.. feeling better le.. weee... guess when theres prob its best to vent here..=] always make me feel better.. blog might be the only way to make me say out everything haha

♥♥ *Lingg n Weii 27FEB eva~~* ♥♥