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i loved once @ Sunday, April 10, 2011

dun be judgmental... will it even do you any good? loving one person... love it all.. Dont always set a barrier around you and doubt/avoid everyone to be a fren of yours.. Dun because of any ABC and assume all ppl are the same.. Ppl might play with ur trust ur feels ur anything.. But nt all fren does it.. Let's all open our hearts freely.. And accept everyone :) and in a n a r/s... We might break/ conflict or even play with the trust n feelings.. When we move on to next r/s alot of us tend to bring our experience and thinking to our next r/s.. And note!! That won't do anything good to both of you.. It's hard to forget what happen in the previous r/s.. But you have to let go and accept your love one right now ♥ it's not too late yet to try now..:)

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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hey hey!!! im back with my blogging.. as always... i've stop blogging for quite a while.. hahahahah :D hows everyone?? :)

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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------------------------------------------- i loved once @ Sunday, October 3, 2010

You mention that you go my house dunno what to do.. have you ever wonder what about me..
you mention all your intention was good be it the method is correct or not...
you mention dunno what to do when i'm havin mood swing..
you mention i have selective listening...
you mention i always this i always that...

but.. does how i feel matters? everything you did was correct? everything you say even if its hurting as long as your intention was good then its not wrong?

i'm selfish.. dun wana get hurt by others yet hurt others.. maybe.. jus maybe i've hurt u million times.. yet i didnt know...

we always mention to share anything together.. yet it seems like i'm always sharing everything with you.. yet you were only sharing the happy things nia.. wads the point... i know your intention was good again... but i need to know how you feel too inorder to keep this goin...
i need to change too...

but how ever.. i suddenly felt... keepin all comments to myself will still be the best ba.. be it angry, dissapointment, sad, everything... i will only share with you happy things nia... from today on.. 03/10/10. i'm no longer going to tell you how i felt how i think.. everything will only share with you the happy things... thats it...

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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------------------------------------------- i loved once @ Wednesday, September 29, 2010

有没有什么想要对我说电梯关上了和心一同坠落
爱一个人是卑微的每次答应自己的
都被你浅浅的微笑推翻了在乖与不乖之间不停穿梭
也有好几天想念到窒息了但想你的人有很多
想你都不算特别我为什么迷恋你的残酷呢
我还记得你笑的像孩子一样诉说未来轻抚着我的头发
但我真正需要你肩膀的时候你躲的远远的
曾经忍不住轻轻吻了的心跳退了又退究竟温柔能不能一起分享
已失去最初的感觉你对我说

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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------------------------------------------- i loved once @ Sunday, August 29, 2010

Hi everyone... it has been so long since i last post anything in my blog... jus an update...

WORK STATUS::

Currently working at starhub accounts. alot of things to handle... when ever i feel like giving up.. i stand up turn around my dear is there... cannot give up.. must strive hard.. =]=] all job is the same in the very beginning. its just how we look at things... i keep saying i wana give up its not going to solve the problem or actually i'm just running away from the fact only... but now.... since the AM n everyone is helping me.... y not i try alittle harder... jus a little more... and i'm able to handle. JIA YOU!!!!

R/S STATUS::

Been 1month plus with Bryan le.. all i could say is... everything seems like a dream like always... his family members, frens, cousin all accept me... everyone treat me very good.... mayb bcus of him... i dunno... erm... no negative tots here... =] the way he treat me is not like anyone had did that b4..

When overnight at his house.. early in the morning aft i come out of the bath room there it is the breakfast that u made.

During work if no time to eat or OT till i forget to eat.. he will always go to the 7eleven to buy stuff for me... even thou he left abit money for the day.. he will still find ways to feed me.. hahaha

Once he ask me if i would marry him and he will take care of me.. take responsibility of me... =]

But well.. lets see how things goes... =]

OH YA!! we got celebrate our first anni oh,... at the Pearl River Palace. over @ suntec convention hall there. We had a very full dinner. then go over his place...

i gave him a videos of pic that we took together.. plus a few letters =]

really hope he love it. as its my first attempt.. hahahaha.. =]

Currently now i'm at his home lookin at his sleeping face writiing this blog.. =] LoVing you!!

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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------------------------------------------- i loved once @ Sunday, August 8, 2010

its jus like a fairy tale dream that i'm having now.. that i hope i will neever wake up from the dream.. silly ba?? but its the first time someone treat me with so much love and care.. thou as time goes by.. things might have change.. but this period of time what ever things happen i'm not gonna forget.. aiyah.. bcome negative again.. hahaha we will stay long long de ma.. =] no worried.. =]=] met alot of his frenz le.. working frenz, neighbour, relatives.... everyone everything... rings had been make... and alot of promises had been done... Dear.. Our stories began on 25/07/2010.. its gonna be a story full of fun, joy n happiness.. thou there might be obstacles in our r/s or maybe not... but no matter what... i'm here for u =] for u to complain how much stres u had outside.. every little things of urs.. =] evern thou u are always seems so strong always so positive.. always smiling... but theres always a small part of u.. whom is sad, worry , angry or even un happy at times... jus wanted u to know.. i'm always here.. for u to talk to.. for u to share things with... i never regretted accept ur request as gf.. never will i.. i can say.. up till now u've been giving more then taking ba... to alot ppl is.. spend his money while u can.. but dunno leh... to me.. u wan buy things for me can la.. but not like everyday all that... or a simple meal can make u so full le.. why go so ex de place jus to eat? thou the foood is diff n the enviorment is nice.. thou i always wanted to know more places.. go to more places eat their special/ chef recommended dish... but once a while still ok ba... i guess.. i didnt ask a hard request... did i? i only needed my guy.. to love, care, concern, dote n take care of me can le ar.. =]

everything in life we can choose... but a relationship.. it needs fate too.. thou it might seems funny to say about fate.. but u know.. have u ever wonder whats real xin fu? have u ever try wakin up in the morning after u came out from bath while u are still blur... ur guy pass u the breakfast he made himself... every little thing that he make for u.. jus to see u smile and as long as u are happy... he's satsify le =]

i believe i mention before... i use to be very negative person.. but now... his positive has slowly influence me.. =] but i hope i didnt pass my negative to him.. =] lots of pic of things he had done for me.. and the food he prepare.. once... while working... my old gastric pain is back again.. and we ot till quite late... thou we both had not much $$$ left... he uses his card to buy cup noodle from 7/11 jus for our dinner... to alot ppl it might be "huh??? maggie only... so happy for??" but it means alot to me.. =]

having u to enter my life.. its the greatest things ever....

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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------------------------------------------- i loved once @ Friday, July 30, 2010

today 30 july... hearing things from my bf de ex... it jus doesnt feel good.. somehow or another.. strugglings... but.. i gotta trust him... As everything is the past le.. its all over.... Our story has jus began.... all the past doesn't matter isn't it?.. who doesnt have any past???? change my mindset and think.... since its all the things is the past.. why do i mind so much when she mention how this or that about my guy,.... its because u didnt cherish him ar... wads the point of telling me all this now?? its far too late u know...

oh well... 20 Liao... grown up le.... gotta be stronger iwhen handling my emotions... even thou he might be close to alot of gals... as long as he love me.. his heart got me... he know what he is doing.. its enough le ar... being stubborn is also a foolish act ar... hahaha nth even happen if i start doubting or dun trust him... why do i even accept him in the first place?? he's doin so much to make me feel secure... intro to his frenz, his buddies, cousin, relative, neighbour and family members.... jus to let ppl know i'm somebody to him ar... n yet i still worry so much... wad am i doin leh aiyo... think abt the happy times ba...

Loving someone is not because who he/she is in the past.. wad matter is now ar... what had been past is the past le.... bringing it up.. doesnt give anyone any benefit... Dont u think so??? thou hearing things from her is very uncomfortable..... but be positive... she mention cus she only realise his good when she leave him ar... but i ardy know it all this while ar.... being with him theres never been regrets.... only happiness...

Have u ever try wakin up with a smile on ur face every morning??? well i do... it freshes n brighten up my everyday... jus by thinkin of him or he appear in the dream... hahahha XD... lol.... and althou today is only the 5th day we've beeen together.... but.... i'm use to be a super duper negative gal,.... till the day... he started to enter my life,.... erase my negative n now... i'm starting to gets more positive.. in mindset.. in thinking.... =] smiles.... hahahha as long as we both know how much deeply in love we both are is enough le... money can earn together.... thou it might be diff from those who is financial freedom...but... lets say one day.... u has ur financial freedom... are u sure ur partner love u for who u are or ur money???? hahahha money means alot n can bring u lots of happiness... BUT !!! theres only 1 thing that money couldnt buy.... MONEY CAN NEVER EVER EVER BUY A PERSON WHO LOVE U TRUELY MADLY DEEPLY.... =]

i love my Hubbi BRYAN~~~!!!!

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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went to eat dinner with dar.... today recieve the news.. went into dars company le... but will it be the same dept still depends ar.. lol... still wondering is it a good or bad things to be in the same company.. lol wonder nia..

erm then today dinner was.. oh jian n chao seah mian... hahahha seah i eat ur cousin again.. dun say what??!! oh hahhaha morning went swimmin with hui jun... do some gals take nend up become a cook lobster... lol red red de... oh my... :( ma yah... i'm cook... hahaha nay one?? lol... lame.. den went to eat our all time fav Claypot toufu after swimming.. is my regular thing with hui jun oh.... hahahaha... xD..

Venue: tiong barhu plaza
Food: Claypot toufu..
must try oh.. !!! nice.. over at kopitiam,.. =]

now at my guy hus.... bloggin... no more broadband at home le...SAdded... =.="" but.. hahhahha luckily still can use his connection la... he intro me alot of his frenz n relative.... hahaha good ba..... lol.... =]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]... stay happy smile... love is in the air... faster breath in oh.. hahahahhaha love those around u ba....

heard a shockin news from Oyong... after he left company He went to kiss n hug her @ cck.. lol y never video down.. omg cant imagine if both of them were.. hahaha but well best wishes... =]

gotta go acc my hubbi loh~~~ nighty nights everyone.. hahaha mus let bed bug bite oh.. hahhaha lol kidding..

♥♥♔ 好想你哦 ♔♥♥

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------------------------------------------- i loved once @ Tuesday, July 27, 2010

after going to interview.. i went to meet meeting my sista then 2 colleagues.. the interview was fine.. waiting for call.. should be ok.. and as for my sister.. next fri or sat will meet me for work... my 2 colleagues.. busy schedule is with me now,, after everything.. i went to meet hubbi for dinner... =] yong tau fu.. was happy the whole night till i get home n see the post of them

alot of fan nao.. D*** that side.. H** that side.. Everything Everyone.... i had enough!! i wan my own life ar... payin debts for fren.. forgiving my frenz.. getting hurt by my fren.. betray... make fun of me... its enough!!! ENOUGH!!! seriously.. didnt u all torture me enough?? ITS SERIOUSLY FOR GOODNESS SAKE ENOUGH!!! OMG!! give me some space to breath.. STOP ALL THIS ALL AT ONCE... mood from bad to worst.. as u all one after another the thing keep happening... break down soon... seriously.. zzzz wo hen xin ku le.. bu yao zai bi wo le... ni men yao de wo gei ni men jiu shi le... peng you wei she me yao zuo dao zhe yang? wei she me.. i really dun get it... wad did u gain after hurtin ur fren... FOrget it!!! you you and you!!! its my facebook its my blog.. i had all the rights to post the things i wanted to... so GET RIGHT OUT OF MY SIGHT!!! FRENZ WHO HURT FREN IS NOT WORTHY OF A FREN!!! WHEN U ALL ARE AT NEED.. I ALWAYS FIND WAYS TO HELP U ALL.. EVEN IN FINANCIAL WISE.. NOW ITS MY TURN WHEN I FACE PROB.. U ALL JUS HIT ON THE SPOT N MAKE THINGS WORST FOR ME... I DUN NEED U ALL FOR ALL OF THIS!!! ENOUGH LE LA... PLEASE..

♥♥JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT!!♥♥

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ok time to update my lovely blog le

... hahaha.. my life has been goin thru down times.. for the pass few months.. being in a single parent family... my mum stop workin.. plus my income is nt stable yet... ended up sharing my savings with my mum.. plus need to pay debts.. like bills all that... alot of things had happen.. which had bring my moral n smile down...

BUT.. what happen is..

My Dearest Hubbi had appear in my life and bring me back joy n laughter.. The love he gave me.. the way he care about me.. everything he does.. even if its jus a very simple thing it will still make me smile..

mayb to u guys.. u all will say... aiya jus started ma.. but well the answer only we will know ar.. haha.. he brighten up my days.. my smile everything..

today goin for interview @ tampines.. aft that goin to meet my sista Liyin @novena.. den meeting my colleagues @jurong for Drink n caught up.. den meet my Hubbi for dinner..

haha wow.. running all around singapore today

ytd while eating with hubbi @ pasta mania.. i saw ASAMUTIN(A).. haha my primary school buddy.. hehee..

i've been struggling n ask hubbi shld i ask whether is he asamutin anot.. haha.. well bibi give me courage n so i ask.. haha indeed he is.. haha (A)he also dun dare to ask me in the first place..

haha so happy.. i took the first step n here it comes.. my old buddy from childhood.. hahaha so proud of myself..

ytd night had a long chat with hubbi.. about wad we wan in life + love..

this morning when i'm still half asleep.. i saw my hp blinking.. so i went to look at it.. its a long sweet sms from my dear...

sayin i bring his confident in r/s again.. and felt that i'm diff from other gals.. well.. i dunno... haha

To me..

i've never ever think that i'm a good gf before.. i'm jus being myself..
i'm always negative.. worry.. sensitive.. insecure.. etc..

but i love to smile n easily laugh.. haha at my company my Director even tell most of the colleagues not to make me laugh..

as i laugh sometimes hard to stop haha.. easily satisfy.. dun really require alot in a r/s.. jus a simple love can le.. dun need everyday go out shop go out for movie..

if majority of the time stay at home watch download movie or drama series i wouldnt mind.. =] its also a way of enjoying Love Life(二人世界)..

♥♥好爱你哦~ ♥♥

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